She was the underlying influence of me!
She was a girl my age, loved to dance and loved to sing
She was a happy girl until the day she stoped to laugh
It was the same day she became the victim of a rapist
would you be my princess down in hell?
would you be my princess down in hell?
She was the most ambitious non-malicious girl in class
She walked the way home singing in joy and bliss
She did not see him coming, did not see the painful path
Her parents never told her 'bout the evil guys and gals
would you be my princess down in hell?
would you be my princess down in hell?
virtual reality in the head of the mannequin are her eyes
virtual humanity in the eyes of a mannequin is my love
conscious brutality and the worth of a mannequin is a lie
oh the virgin in the crush room,
poisened mushroom for dessert
She belonged to the passive
to the tragic, to the weak
Her hair smelled like strawberry
and her blades were red as these
virtual reality in the head of the mannequin are her eyes
virtual humanity in the eyes of a mannequin is my love
conscious brutality and the worth of a mannequin is a lie
oh the virgin loves the carnage
on her forearms in the dark
She belonged to the passive
to the tragic, to the weak
She kissed her wounds
and cried with the taste of iron on her tongue
Oh the bloodstains in the bathroom,
she died too soon that's what they say
She belongs to the wicked,
to the restless, creeping dead
She sits in her room,
crying for salvation, but the angel never came.
help me i'm alive
kill me cause death'll set me free
I'm looking at a mirror, not myself
kill me
cause death'll set me free
help me I feel numb
shoot me maybe i will feel
I'm looking for a light in the dark
shoot me
and hope that i will feel
When this venom reached my heart
I was cold and dead and fell apart
This venom was my loneliness
it poisened all I would posess, my love, my love
help me i'm alive
kill me cause death'll set me free
help me I feel numb
shoot me maybe i will feel
help me i'm alive
kill me cause death'll set me free
I tried to sing but i can't
scream but i can't
tried to play these strings but i can't
sing but i can't
scream but i can't
sing but i can't make my voice sound good
I'm sick of sitt'n' inside all day
don't wanna go outside it's hell
I hate to be alone so long
the people out there all get me wrong
Loneliness is killing me
there's a word i don't get it's called we
I tried to sing but i can't
scream but i can't
tried to play these strings but i can't
sing but i can't
scream but i can't
sing but i can't make my voice sound good
I tried to be genuine
not lame not fake not ripped off
I tried to look super cool
but ended up a total fool
I acted shy, I acted proud
never spoke the truth out loud
I tried to sing but i can't
scream but i can't
tried to play these strings but i can't
sing but i can't
scream but i can't
sing but i can't make my voice sound good
just leave me be a renegade
just leave me be alone
just leave me be a serenade
just leave me be alone
cause you cursed me with eagerness to fail
eagerness to fail
cause you cursed me with eagerness to fail
eagerness to fail
in the winter of regret, of remorse
what ever's lost and torn
I will fail, I will fail
and you'll never pierce the veil around my heart
you will fail
and you'll never pierce the veil around my heart
just leave me be a renegade
just leave me be alone
just leave me be a serenade
just leave me be alone
cause you cursed me with eagerness to fail
eagerness to fail
cause you cursed me with eagerness to fail
eagerness to fail
in the winter of regret, of remorse
what ever's lost and torn
I will fail, I will fail
and you'll never pierce the veil around my heart
and you'll never pierce the veil around my heart
credits
released December 19, 2012
recorded at Wetzlarer Musikschule e.V. Wetzlar under assistance of Siegfried Fritz - Thanks for the support :)
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